Summing UP the Week

After finally conquering the shock of finding a sewer roach in my bathtub, I finally was able to get back into the tub again this morning.  I am still seeing that horrible critter crawling around in there, and I do not dare to forget it to make sure it doesn't happen again.

I had ordered two items from HSN this past week when on special, and today both have finally arrived. One is a skin regimen, and the other a Dyson fan.  But alas and alack, the fan did not have the remote that is supposed to come with it so I had to call HSN to complain about it.  They are going to send me another and when it gets here, I have the choice of either fan with the remote.  I told a banker about it who suggested that I keep the one with the remote since they should work together properly.  He has a point1

I love the fan.  It is making the living room more enjoyable and livable since I turn the air conditioning off in the evening.  But the air distributor keeps it cool.  Outside the area of the fan it is not so lovely but so long as you can feel the air, it is wonderful.  But without a remote, I do not have use of the oscillating part of it. I am wondering how it works on this particular fan.  I am really quite skeptical about the entire fan right now.

Other events of the week which are simply news stories include the capture and killing of a prisoner escapee in New York state.  Odd at the way this prison break is playing.  One can only wonder how much of it we should believe, since it is a story that has had so many twists and turns that it is hard to buy into it at times.  Can a prison be that lax that this escape plan could be carried out so well?

Europe has been under attack in three locations: France, Tunisia, and Kuwait!  All seem to be orchestrated ISIS attacks.  Serious trouble there.

Funerals are being held for the men and women killed in Charleston, South Carolina.  Some nut case by the name of Dylan Roof took upon himself to travel 120 miles to carry out an act of vengeance on innocent church going people.  What kind of idiot this young crazed kid is has been cussed and discussed over the media.  He hated the American flag, hated black people, so he picked a black church with a high reputation to carry out his madness.  Fortunately, the church people have been so good as to forgive and to act honorably in this very serious matter. To think that this young man entered this church with a weapon, sat with these people during Bible study, and then stood up to shoot and kill them is unbelievable. It makes no sense to me, but any more in this crazy world, people get worse and worse all the time.


The t.v. is showing Barack Obama as he ends his eulogy  for the pastor by singing Amazing Grace. He startled the congregation who finally rose to sing it with him.  It is interesting to watch him as he tries to lead them in song, and he does have a good voice.  Surrounded by all those members of the church around him, he looks pretty small and thin in comparison to the powerful men who stood behind him.


Gays celebrated the Supreme Court's decision to allow gay marriages as legal under the constitution.  It seems odd that this was ever a question but gays have had Barack Obama as their champion so that the public has been changing in attitudes about gay rights so that the liberal members of the court voted 5 to 4 to acknowledge their right to legal rights in partnerships.

They are celebrating loud and clear.  Hopefully, this will not be an issue in the election because the Republicans have been trying to write amendments to protect the marriage of heterosexuals for a long time.  Scott Walker tonight sounded like the idiot he obviously is about this subject by suggesting that  we make an amendment to the constitution regarding marriage. How dumb can any one be to even suggest such a thing?

But Rubio and Bush were rather mild in their disagreement, Rubio saying the right thing the right way. Surprise! Surprise!  The only Republican who made sense.  I wonder how they think they can win elections making the stupid statements they are so noted for doing.  But Rubio at least said that it is the law of the land we must respect it even if we disagree with it. I do not know why they can disagree to legal protections.  This is a civil matter, not a church matter.

I do not deny that Jesus says quite plainly that marriage is between man and woman.  But I hate to say this but some would change that if they could.  But it is clear.  He also says that angels do not marry, that in Heaven there is no such thing as marriage.  the resurrected are as angels, and do not marry.

But then, all was passed from word to mouth for years before it became written, and I honestly wonder at anyone who can ever believe anything that is passed generation from generation by word of mouth.  Even the old handwritten probably had changes in the words...so it goes...I am happy to believe that in Heaven there is no marriage.  Since marriage is for the flesh to procreate and to have wee babies...no need for reproduction of spirit in Heaven.

On that note, good night!

Try Again

Getting adjusted to a new apartment and region is taking some time. Now that i am finally in my apartment I do not go out as much as when I had been waiting to get into the place.  I have so much work to do that I do something every day towards getting things in place, but I tire easily and so I will not push myself too hard now.

I have lots of ceramics, most of which had been my mothers, as I had only a few, but all of her stuff became mine once she passed away.  I have finally put most of it into the cupboards where at least they are safe from becoming broken or damaged. I had had one incident where one glass was broken and I have even kept it because it is such beautiful crystal. I was sickened by it but it happened when I carried it from the Monaco to East McDonald.  I won't let go of it though.

I promised myself not to buy anything for this apartment until after I am here a year.  I do not know if I will stay for another year or not and so I do not want to invest into any furniture at all. I could go to GoodWill maybe to find something on sale.  Sandra had bought the table for me at $1.00 on sale she said.  I would be shocked to get anything that cheap now.  But that is the only way I would do it.

I did give the table to St. Vincent de Paul along with the love seat and the glider chair and bicycle.

I do need lamps and so I will buy lamps at either Walmart or a thrift shop.

But for the time being I am using the lights that are installed in the apartment.  My place looks dark from outside because I do not use the highest lamps.

I admit right now i am nostalgic and am missing my mom and my dad.  I now understand how they may have felt at this age now that i am going through it.  If it were not for a bad wisdom tooth, I might feel better than I do at present.  But this tooth is giving me sensations that I do not like.  I blame all my negative feelings on it.  I think it is the cause of most of my aches and pains that I am having.

I confess to ordering a Dyson 12 inch fan for the apartment.  It was on sale at HSN and I have always liked the fans that I found in Dillard's and Macy's.  But they are way too expensive for me to buy until a special came on HSN which I could not resist. It should be in this week I am hoping.  I can hardly wait to get it.  It is 75% quieter than the previous ten inch they sell for over $325.  This 12 inch was only $199 which I found irresistible.  I bought it!  I would be a fool not to buy it.

I can't wait for it.  I love the air conditioning system in this apartment, and frankly, it does not get too hot in here at night.  Since I am on the Southeast side, I have a good location to avoid the heat in the late afternoon.  I had been on the West side on McDonald and the bedroom was always hot.  They had removed the sun screens that did block the heat and did not replace them so that the people who live there now can only suffer from the heat.  It was so hot in my bedroom that it burned the rod that held the window fast to a deep dark brown. I was shocked to see how bad it was.

I am watching Ninja warrior but i think that million dollar listing show is coming up on Bravo at 9:00 with a new show.  I will go back and forth to see both.

I had wanted to go to California to see American Pharaoh but I just cannot afford to do it now. I will go to the sports grill on Saturday to hopefully make a decent bet on a chance to get some real money. I am hoping anyway.  It is the Hollywood Gold Cup so I may have a shot at doing well finally.

American Pharaoh is to parade around the track. I want to see him but I have too much work to do to up and leave, plus, I would have to go Thursday night to get there on Friday at a decent time...Too costly right now.

Nervous Wreck

I am a nervous wreck and I am using this means to just air my thoughts.

One, I will literally get rid of all items that I possess that I do not need. I am unloading all items now and have not yet found a place for most.  I do not intend to go to any expense in this new apartment. I will not buy any items to use in here but will use what I already have.  I may rent a storage room for some things just to have them secured and under lock and key.  Time will tell on that.

I do intend not to extend my lease here and will depart this apartment next July for certain. I hope to find a permanent home (?) by that time.  Permanent is a word that may not be true.  Nothing is ever permanent.

But perhaps I will find a place to call home where i can plan to live until I am put to my rest. I do not intend for that to happen anytime this year.

But when you reach my age, you wonder how many years left.  That has been consuming my thoughts for some time now.  I wish I could set a date so that I could manage my affairs better.

This event has really affected me in a very adverse way.  For one thing, I have realized that in many ways I more alone than ever, and it does not please me.  For that reason alone, I still want to spend my last years doing more than sitting around an apartment watching t.v. and going from shopping mall to shopping mall.

But I do admit that television does help make the days pass in a way that participation in outdoor activities in Arizona cannot possibly do.

I am not interested in socializing now.  I want to get my belongings arranged and sorted properly, to get myself in control as far as health and diet are concerned, and to be able to travel about freely without worry or concern about damage to my home or car.

At present, this is simply a way of talking myself into sanity once again.  I was out of my mind about a sewer roach for awhile.  I was ticked off at Dish representatives until I finally received a decent letter telling me that boxes are on their way, a tracking system will appear, and that this account is closed for certain.  What a problem that company had been for me.

I wish that people would better communicate with one another about the problems they have with various companies so we could all be of use to one another.

Sounding off about this day!

This day began with the worst possible thing that could happen to me when I discovered a sewer roach in my bathtub.  Yes, it was at the drain which I eventually learned is how it made its way up into the bathtub.  God, it was huge!  I did take a picture of it, which turned out to be video but I wanted a photo of it.  I had to get help from strangers to pick it up and take it out of my apartment. I was white as a sheet the entire time. I was really frightened of the thing.

Two men who happened to pass by and a girl who was walking with them came into my apartment to help me after I asked them if they would.  I am a coward about picking up roaches, and had earlier killed two of average size but this one was the size of a mouse with huge tentacles or claws or legs or whatever, wings even, for all I know, and I was just out of mind, literally.

I am not over it by a long shot but they were kind enough to help.  The girl had enough sense to ask for a bowl and a towel to pick it up.  When she saw it she was shocked as were both of the boys.  They reassured me that I had nothing to be ashamed of for asking for they help.  It was awful!  I cannot get over it yet!

But then I had a phone call from Dish which is turning out to be the worst company to work with about closing an account with...they are the world's worst and do not have a brain about t.v. and accounts now that I have learned how bad their representatives are to discuss business with.

I have letters on record from a week ago saying that I had closed the account, and finally, one last representative was sane enough to close the auto payment feature off my former account.  This company is unbelievable.

I am waiting for a box from them to return the equipment.  The dish guy who came to see about the possibility of setting up a connection had warned me about them. He was a nice guy as it turns out now.

But the last operator was so bad I could hardly believe it but that is because I decided not to participate in a call back to rate their work. I did ask for his operator number and name. He was bad to say the least but he was the one who did finally stop the auto payment process which nobody should ever agree to do.  That is why I changed my bank account because that company would have continued to take money out had I not done that.

Learn from me if you can.

Influence of Jackie Collins

I saw Jackie Collins on  Access Hollywood yesterday in which she said something that I have decided to try.   She suggested that we write a page a day to make a book for the end of the year.  Whether it is good or not makes no difference, it is just a book.  So I am going to try to do that if I can.

Right now, my day is already beginning in  a way that I hate.  I found a huge sewer cockroach in my tub.  I have never seen a roach so big and so frightening to me as this one was.  He was at the drain so he must have crawled up through the drain to get into the tub.  I had found two previously which I killed with my roach killer. I fear having to stock up on such stuff now but I will certainly get another can asap.  My nerves are shot to pieces right now.

Anyway, I called management who was not helpful except to tell me what it was and how it got there.  I asked her to have me on the exterminator's list after she explained that he won't be here until next Tuesday. I had had a previous introduction to the exterminator thanks to wasps trying to build a nest on my patio.  But this has taken the cake for me.  I am ready to break my lease and move elsewhere but I will be sure to spray everything, am trying to get rid of all boxes, and put things away as quickly as possible.

I don't think a book about fighting wasps and cockroaches appeals to me, but it is a part of my daily life right now.

I did not scream aloud at all, but I did search to find someone to help me get the thing out of the tub. I could not and would not do it myself.  At the other apartment I had found a man to take out a lizard in the closet of the bedroom but now here I found two guys and a gal to help me get this dang thing out of the bathtub. I was scared of the thing and would not and could not touch it.

The men were nice, the girl a bit unhappy with me, but she came along, and had the good sense to know what was needed to get it out.  I needed her too.   She did ask if I told management which I had done at once.  I was and am a bit put off by this problem right now.

Oh well, another day...another problem...what is life anyway?

Two Full Weeks in New Home

Where do I begin in this discussion?  I am slowly becoming accustomed to this new apartment dwelling, but I am taking it very slowly.  I finally have seen what it looks at night...Last night I tried to find the moon to see some configuration but I was too late to see the sight.  So tonight I did spot the moon in the sky finally, and walked to the dumpster to empty some trash.  At last, I see apartment lights everywhere.  Amazing at how this place looks at night.

Because I moved most of this stuff myself, I overworked it, and am so tired that I won't recover from this until two or three more months I fear.  For some reason, I am waking up every morning at 6:00 but here of late I am sleeping in til 7:30.  Then I fall asleep some time during the day.  I need a lot of sleep now.

When I first got here I did not have hot water but had to learn where the fuse box is to turn on a breaker.  Then the dryer did not work but I realize now that I did not know how to operate it.  It is pretty simple actually but I did not know that then.  So after I finally did a full laundry, I was so happy that i had decided to move into this place that you cannot imagine!  I felt like I was actually home after all.  How spoiled I am now with this in my own apartment.  Before that, we had to use a large laundry room which makes life pretty rough when having to carry huge loads of laundry. I have a cart but still and all it was inconvenient.  The fact that all I need to do is open a door and have a full sized washer and dryer just makes me so happy.

I opted to use cable tv since the apartment is set up for cable.  I had used satellite and I actually prefer the channels on the satellite dish to those on Cable but so it goes.  I am using the local Cox Cable with advanced ability to use on demand and music choices.  None of which I have done yet. I am not really ever that tied to tv. shows anyway but this is ridiculous.

I have seen a few movies on TNT that I had not know existed.  Sometimes I wish Hollywood would not make some films since I think that they contribute to the problems of the world too much.  Tonight's was a bad one about the USA being under attack by some vicious, hostile mean guys!  It was pretty scary but being a Hollywood flick, one knows it will always end successfully after all.

The heat has been unbearable this past week so I have spent my time indoors most of the time. I cannot take this high heat that much and I will not venture out into it unless absolutely necessary.  So I have been caught all week long, but it gave me time to work on unloading some of this stuff.  I worked on the bathroom this morning.

But i am sleepy already. I do turn my a.c. off at night.  I run it only half a day.  I am watching how much it costs to operate now.  I love the air conditioner. It is excellent.

So for now, that is the extent of my week here.  Things are way too expensive but I am on a buying freeze despite spending money on things that I am using to save my body and face....I did buy a Dyson fan from HSN because of the cost after buying a Lancome offer that was too good to refuse too.  So while I spent a lot of dough, I am learning that it is all worth it. Now I must find the way to pay myself back.

I will do it I promise myself that.

I Have A Dream - ABBA, Amira Willighagen, Connie Talbot