Yours Truly

Yours Truly
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Monday, July 6, 2015

Talking to Myself

I have been writing on my blogger more often than usual largely because I am in an area where I have no friends or family to chew the fat with.  I am a person who likes to chat with people, even adversaries, just to have interaction.  I could go to the fitness room, as I did do one night to try to use the computer there when my wifi had a problem, but I found only one man using a machine for exercise.  We greeted one another, but we did not bother one another.  Otherwise, I have only a few who live nearby and occasionally do chat with the warm friendly Debbie whenever she knocks at my door.

Right now, Ninja Warrior is playing on t.v. but I am using the time to air a few thoughts.  This week was full of news stories that are more than mind boggling.  One is the Donald Trump faux pas in which he slammed Mexico for sending illegals to cross the border. He promised to build a fence to keep them out.

So now everyone in the world is distancing themselves from him, calling him a racist.  He is not a racist but he is feeling the brunt of what happens in the USA when important organizations gang up to part company with you. All of a sudden, Donald is a pariah not only in the presidential campaign but now in all his business enterprises.

However, voters are giving him thumbs up in the areas in which he is campaigning.  So who knows how this saga will end.

The USA women's soccer team won against Japan, and scored most of the points so early in the game to totally demoralize Japan who did maintain composure enough to get two points.  The game ended 5 to 2.  It was sheer ecstasy for the American players and fans.

I am slowly returning to my promised novel that I am writing in my head more than on paper.  I have changed the focus of my Alexander novel to explore an event in Alexander's history that is seriously important to understand.

Gwen Hernandez is offering her intro to Scrivener course this fall so I may join it soon.  I have it on my email to decide when to subscribe to it.

Thanks to Scott Oden I learned some fresh ideas from a Hollywood scriptwriter who I posted a video on this blogger to find quickly if I want to refer to it again.

I have been discussing reincarnation a bit on this blog site because of the relationship between Roxanne and Alexander.  I had been able to see Roxanne when I went back in time to learn all I could about Alexander. I admit I was rather rough on myself when I first began the trips back to learn of him as I had had so much of Louis XIV I did not think that I would need much to learn about Alexander.  Oh, how little did I know then.  But I recalled Roxanne so vividly as she is a precious thing to me in memory.  She is just adorable to my eyes, and I loved her dearly just from the image of her that I saw.  Her eyes stood out to me, and one day by chance,  I happened to go through some old photos of kids from Van Wert  to find my first crush in third grade when I had moved to Lincoln School (Third ward) after we moved away from Franklin School (Fourth ward).  I had had a big crush on him and even wrote him notes at the time, but it was short lived but I recalled it.  All of a sudden, as I was looking at a photo of him I saw the similarity in eyes.  I thought how strange since it made me think of Roxanne.  So when I went back to my class reunion, he was there, and the strangest other thing happened as I had decided already what if he had been Roxanne...the strange that happened is that love all of a sudden came over me, and I could feel it. I even mentioned it to him as I walked up to him.  We had a friendly chat and that was it when he mentioned his wife at which point I smiled and walked away.  Later, at the picture taking session, I tried to sit next to him, and said some dumb thing at which he was smiling ad laughing but someone sat between us.  It was funny.  I associate him with Roxanne now.  I will not say anything that he is or had been, but I saw the resemblance and understood how it could be possible that he had been...how strange to think that now...but the love that was around when I walked up to him impressed me more than anything which is why I said what I had said in my post on reincarnation. He is just one of several who I think may have been with me in the past.

Twin Flames, Twin Souls

Thanks to Leslie Cottle who has produced a video about her belief in Twin Flames, I am following through with an acknowledgment of Twin Souls as described in Light of Egypt by Thomas Burgoyne.

Light of Egypt is an interesting discussion of a belief espoused by the Hermetic Brotherhood.  It was left in my classroom years ago when I was a teacher in Azusa, California. I eventually sent the book back to California.

I came to believe in many of the statements made in Light of Egypt since it is a book about the Science of the Soul, in which it describes soul senses.  It is a book which changed my life literally as one can only read it when able to fathom some of the concepts made within it.

I do not believe in it totally, because one of its assertions is not to buy into the belief of reincarnation. I do believe in reincarnation for some, but I will not speak for all of the population, not knowing whether it is applicable to all or not.  In Light of Egypt, it qualifies its belief about reincarnation saying only Messianic souls do reincarnate.  I suspect that Messianic must be qualified as well.

However, due to its teachings, I soon became aware of my soul senses, and quite often had some difficulty in distinguishing between soul senses and actual senses.  The soul senses are the same s the 5 physical senses, but with an additional two senses added.

I will not enumerate or even paraphrase any of these, but suffice it to say that clairvoyance, clairaudience, and even senses of touch, smell, and taste are activated in the soul as well as in the flesh.  I came to believe in some of the teachings of the Hermetic Brotherhood as a result, so far as to go to find my soul mate which is described in full as well.

In this book, a long discussion of black souls is made in which I have come to believe as well.  Black souls are dangerous and harmful to the so called good souls, and their plan is to thwart the good souls of the earth. I have actually the vision which enables me to spot and know black souls when they are around me.  It is not a joke. It is a fact that one's soul can be seen, and I have often seen that a person can change from black to white as white is light.  Black is a void of light.  Just as hell is void of love, and void of light, all souls who are spiritually inclined towards Heaven are of light and love.  The light appears white when seen by a reader of souls.

So Leslie's video touched a chord within me when she talks about her twin flame, that other part of her self that she longs to return to her.  It is a beautiful and touching film which I shared to appear on my wall.

I understand her quest, but in my case, I traveled to California years ago to meet up with people in Sacramento.  At a special meeting called by the Governor I was so fortunate to go into that state of Heaven or Pure Perfect Love which I described in my previous post. I believe that the now Governor and I had been together in a previous lifetime which is what activated the blanket of Heaven which enshrouded me at the meeting. I fell into that state of Love and have been changed by it forever. What happened to the governor is something that I will never know.  But it was when he looked up to where I was sitting that this occurred to me. I have loved Jerry Brown ever since no matter what he does or says.  While I may disagree with him politically, I thank him for the opportunity to enjoy Heaven's message to me.

So be it.

UFO Day

July 2 was UFO Day.

I had a strange experience, story of my life, again on that day.  Because of the Palmetto bug found in the bathtub which scared the dickens out of me, I was sealing the stopper in the tub since the manager had told me it had come up through the drain.  I doubt that and the exterminator man told me it had not gotten in through the drain.  But at the time I closed the stopper anyway.

To my surprise when I woke up in the morning to go into the bathroom, I looked in the tub to see it full of water to the 1/4  level of the tub.  I mean this was a lot of water that could not have occurred due to a leak, and that tub does not leak water at all.  So how did it get there?

It was UFO Day.  Maybe a UFO.

I took it as God did it.  That it is proof that God is all around me in this apartment too.  Remember that lights had appeared at the Monaco, that a being appeared to scare the cat at East McDonald, and that the card of the Sacred Heart appeared out of nowhere, and that water appeared on the floor from out of nowhere.

So now it was in the bathtub. I analyzed it and pondered it for days. I have finally taken a bath in the tub. I am getting over the fear of the Palmetto bug.

At the Ford Museum in Dearborn, Michigan, I remember the bathtub for torture.  Stop torturing yourself.  This is a form of torture too, but believing it is God is all that will console me.

I know for sure that while I attribute it to God, it could be something other than that, but I choose to be positive.

I did not do it myself!  is all that I know.


Continuing Reincarnation and Past Lives

To understand reincarnation, one must understand the concepts of Heaven and Hell.  Essentially, in real terms, Heaven and Hell are either Biblical terms, or poetic topics, or other religious faith's concepts.  Each one of us adheres to the beliefs that are frankly told to us in our environmental setting.  Whether they are actual or not depends upon one's acceptance of the values and beliefs that are passed down from generation to generation in one's living habitat.

Because someone has not been taught to believe does not mean that either does or does not exist for any but those who learn of it.  If the condition of Heaven or Hell is true, it will be there for any and all no matter whether taught or not.  Just because we today do not know anything about any other planet in the universe does not mean that the conditions on that planet are anything but real to whoever it is that is fully aware of them.

In a Happy Day's episode starring Ron Howard, the point was made by a writer that anyone who goes to a dentist experiences hell.  Hell is a negative concept obviously, but anyone suffering a toothache or anything to do with the teeth that is uncomfortable comes to believe in a  form of Hell.

Likewise, anyone who has fallen in love knows a piece of Heaven despite themselves whether they realize it or not.

Some people believe that God is Love. God is simply more than the love feeling that people can and often do fall into when around a person or being that creates the sensation of "in love".  In love is a delightful state of buoyancy, light heartedness, and a lift that nothing else can give one.  Perfect love is a fully expanded version of the "in love" that many people feel about another person with whom they have become deeply attached.  Yes, one can fall out of love, and even when in the state of Perfect Love, which is greater than just a romantic  feeling, one is still enveloped in that buoyancy, lightness, and eternal springlike state of In Love.

However, Perfect Love has so many great rewards stemming from this Love that is what St. Paul described it in long suffering, patient, always kind, gentle, lacking jealousy and envy, but always fulfilled in a state of completion and fulfillment.  When in that state of Heavenliness, one is at one with all that is whole and complete, a state of joy that is unsurmountable, and an awareness that Love is all inclusive, never jealousy, petty, mean-spirited, or wanting in any way. One would hope to stay int hat state of existence forever, which is the end goal for most who become aware of its existence.

So on that note, when one reincarnates, again and again, one may wonder why, and what has happened to others who you have known in your life.  Especially, as with so many who want to know about loved ones, what is the ongoing relationship between each previous love that one has had.

I can only speak of my own experiences which is why I am writing this.  Because one of the things that I did learn after having experienced the joy of Perfect Love in which I so firmly believe through its happening to me, I later learned of former lifetimes.  I explored those lifetimes to learn more about the person and other people in that person's life.  I gleaned a lot of truth in these excursions to the past, and the one thing that I am confident in knowing is that whenever I encountered any of my former loves in this lifetime, Heaven was always around me as I had fallen in love again, and knew that Heaven is our lot in this lifetime.  Love was all around, and the glory of Perfect Love is that it lets go, knows no jealousy, but recognizes that love is eternal.  We pass through one another, meet again, and continue to love freely without even having to unite in marriage or a bond of any kind but being together again for even a moment, months, days, weeks, or years...depending upon the who and how of the relationship.

I know this is true about at least four of the men in this lifetime with whom I had had a romance, a brief fling, or a long romance.  Our so called karma as people like to call it took place and we became known to one another to part from one another.  But the love that connects us was present, and as we do so often fall in and out of love, we passed through our present love experience as if it had been a sudden spring shower, or the tumultuous storm, or light breeze.  Yet, Love endured.

I will mention one man whose friendship interests me because it was so gentle, kind, and undemanding.  I met this man in Florida at a local bar, and we became friends.  He is one of the nicest men that I have ever met, and he did give me sound advice, escorted me to many places in the area, and was understanding and gentle with me. When he asked me to leave Florida to go back to Michigan with him, I said No I would not do that.  Gee, I had just moved there.   But I remember him with fondness because his was the most rewarding friendship I had in that state.  I eventually learned of who he had been in the past to me in a former lifetime which entirely blew my mind.

It made sense to me.  We had been married to one another in an arranged marriage, and I had been a very bad husband to this faithful wife of mine then.  He would be shocked to learn that I would imagine, and because I will not identify him now except to state that I believe that he had been my spouse during a former lifetime. I do now understand why I like him even to this day.  Just as then, he gave me no troubles at all.


And I believe that reincarnation does play a role in it. I believe that the men I became enamored with in this lifetime are the souls of people who I had either been married to or had been distressed in my past.  With a few of them, Love did enter the picture, and that is why I say that we are connected by Love Eternal despite our parting of the ways.  I live in a different age now.

As a woman, I am free to make choices.  Maybe some of the men I have met are not so faithful and true so that I have often just kicked them out when they decided to see me again.  I said No to
men who were only using me for their own pleasure but cared nothing about me to give me the honor and respect I desired.  Good bye and so long, you rascal you.  But some men were good, loved me and proved it, and I think well of them yet.  Yes, we have Love and Heaven because we are connected together through Love.

This has been a long discussion, but because someone I know through a reincarnation discussion group posted a video of her desire for her Twin Flame, I feel compelled to write this now for myself to think through again and again.  God bless.  To my way of thinking, when twin souls meet, they become as angels, and have powers given only to them.  So says Light of Egypt.

I do believe in some of the truths espoused in the Hermetic Brotherhood even though they deny reincarnation.  So we are in a state of conflict since I have traveled back in time to fully realize the who and when of my own personal journey through time and space.  So be it.


Sunday, July 5, 2015

Dessert for Potluck

I made this strawberry cream cheese pretzel salad to test to see if I would want to make it for the Potluck that we are having at the apartment this weekend.  It is a pretty simple recipe and I wanted to try it before using it in a crowd of people.

I actually liked it tonight. It took me a while to think it was pretty good, but this last piece I had was so good that i could not believe it. I think that the longer it sets, the better it gets.  It is so creamy that it is almost a cheese cake but only close to it.  I had always loved the cream cheese mixture but because I could not wait for it to set up I had cut into it so that the jello did run a bit in the first cut.  I was not very crazy about it then, but I let it set overnight and it turned out to be super good after all. You never know for sure until you try.  It is really good after all, a lot better than I had thought. I can see that fresh strawberries might be better than frozen just because of the consistency of the berry but these were in fact very good.

So while I do not think that I will make it again, just simply because I would have to make it a  full day ahead.  Because I had fears of it falling apart while sitting on a table waiting for people to eat it,  I doubt that I will make it again.

I can make something similar but not exactly this dessert.  End of trial run.




Goal Setting

in a previous post, I discussed my passport.  I have used it only one time.  That is a story in itself, but I did end up in Paris, France, and the Chateau de Versailles where I proved to myself the truth of my soul searching.

The necessity of proving all my visions valid to myself prompted me to take the journey which ended up proving to me how much I need to take care of myself. I did fall in love with the gardens and the chateaux that are all prominent on the grounds.  I especially loved the Grand Trianon which is celebrating some occasion this year.  I understand that there is some recognition of the King's death as well, but I would return to that area just to enjoy the sights and sounds once again. It is very much a part of me, both the Chateau of the its origins and that of today.

There are so many things for me to see in a future trip that I did not see, but I would love to travel the same exact trail again to see it all again as I had the first time round.  How I wish I could make that happen.

I also want to make a trip to Macedonia, Greece, Alexandria, and other places in Europe as well. Rome, for sure, London, and Strasbourg, and Germany too.  So many places.  Even Spain if I could get the chance but alas and alack, I want to go to Australia, New Zealand, Japan, Asia, Hong Kong, and Beijing and Singapore, and South America, FIJI Islands, and so many more places.  If I can get to just one of them I will accomplish something but hopefully, I will be able to see several.  Russia, and St. Petersburg are also on my list of sights and places to see.  I always wanted to see Persepolis as well but Iran and the rest of the world are on a collision course, and I do know that my memories of that great place are of the 4th Century when Alexander was there.  I still remember Persepolis as I saw it for the first time long before I even knew it was a city  in ancient times. I had to look it up on the internet.

So how am I going to do all this?   I will try to figure that out now.

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