Last night while writing my post for this blog, after the thought My will will be done, I had the flow of writing that some would call automatic so that I believe that Holy Spirit wrote the final paragraphs about life eternal regarding the soul, and the problem of enduring the flesh.
So this morning because I did not get to sleep before 5:00 this morning I slept til 10:00 when I woke up to the sound of a blower outside my apartment. I went into the bathroom to find water at a depth that was unusually high in the tub. I do not think it is a leak as I have had the stopper in the tub ever since the Palmetto bug was found. I learned that it was a Palmetto bug from the exterminator who said that it did not come up the drain but lives in the trees outside.
So he has eased my fear but noticing that i had let the stopper open i closed it before going to bed, remembering that I did not want anything crawling up through the pipes. So it was closed and high water, nearly one quarter full was in the tub this morning. No leaks, so how did the water get there. I have kept my doors locked so nobody could get in, and I know for a fact that I did not touch the water faucet at all. My conclusion right away is that it is evidence that God is here.
So since ABC locals just announced that today is UFO day I naturally said aloud, "Oh, that explains it!" I blame UFO's for everything. ABC had a poll of how many believe in UFO's, and naturally, being an eye witness to one in Michigan in 1975 I surely do. I have seen others at a distance since but this one was so unclose that nobody could ever miss it.
There is no doubt in my mind about UFO's, meaning Unidentified, and Flying, and Objects.
Odd that I chose to go to Pothos. org last night to read whatever was posted there, and found an article by Jeanne Reams, a phd in history who has written her doctorate on Hephaestion, Alexander's so called best friend. I remembered my visions of Hephaestion who I always liken a bit to Ben Affleck in looks department as seen in my memory tank. I have many memories of Hephaestion for the record, and he is a most handsome visage to recall. I can tell tales of him myself, and have on occasion, but for now, I am just saying...
So I went into a discussion of former lifetimes, laughing at mother earth spinning around the sun for centuries with souls going in and out at periods of time living in the flesh for the dramatization and gradual total habitation of the planet. I see things that others do not, and often have to laugh about it. I only ever find a few advanced souls wise enough to comprehend my thinking but so it goes, I am writing this so those who understand it can read it and ponder it.
I realize that those doubters who do not believe cannot be totally convinced, just taking someone's word for it, but life is based upon our taking each other's word, and having faith in one another. I write this only because I need to express it, and I frankly am not trying to persuade or convince anyone else of the facts of this, because I know that only a few like a woman in Missouri once who led me to the right scripture for the lights that showed up in my apartment to understand. A few souls do help one another out.
Just as a woman in the ATG group did often help me when I shared my travels in time to know that my visions were not in vain but had substance. It is amazing at how much I learned about Alexander and his friends and companions during my trips back in time. So no coincidence that I did go to Pothos last night to realize how long it has been since I touched base there.
I suspect that it is the lesson I learned when writing my last paragraphs last night about hierarchy. Alexander was born into a family who valued their role as leaders or rulers in the life of the country in which they dwelled. While Alexander was the leader after his father expired, he was regarded as a superman by his cohorts, but spirit is reminding me that the tender of the horses whose hooves had to be kept healthy for the long rides, that the dispenser of grains, that the seamstress who sewed, that the man who made the shields, armor, and weapons, that the accountants who kept the records, that all these person are just as important to the cause as is the leader Alexander who is the brains and the guts of the group, but also is in spirit equal to all the others. I realized some of Alexander's many negative qualities as well as his positive qualities while writing this spiritually inspired paragraph at the time that I wrote it. I was seized as the saying goes by the spiritual thoughts which affect mental thoughts but which come out of my fingertips as fast as I can type them. In other words, I am not actually thinking about these things, but like a spider spins a web, just opening the way for them to come into print onto this page.
Alexander is the man who the gods, or the spirits, or the inteligences, or the creators, used to do their bidding at the time. Alexander recognized this after having it pummeled it into his consciousness by his mother and father as well, but in truth, he possessed all the capabilites that enabled him to do the dangerous and awesome acts that he did. He was truly reckless at times, but just as I am today in the belief that God controls my life and my behavior and actions, so did Alexander then.
Now I have relived Alexander's life, and I have undergone many moments in his life, learning of the people who surrounded him, his wives, his child, and his family and friends. One would wonder as I did at the time that all this happened at how it is that I could uncover an event which occurred so many centuries ago, but in spirit it is not that long at all...it is just another yesterday in the annals of time, and it is important to know and to realize why one must come to grips with this sooner or later.
It is like today I am weighing in all of that is going on around me. Water in the bathtub with no explanation of why or how...I must figure that one out but my first conclusion is that God is here.
I believe that God is both within and without. That God is all around and lives both within ourselves, and around us in all those others who allow and permit and invite God to live within them. Together, we all comprise what the Catholic Church calls the spiritual body of Christ. That is true to some extent but it is more than just a Catholic or Universal belief, it is a reality. Together, those of us who let God grow, bloom, and prosper within us, we are given the power to do God's will. When I said my will will be done, I realized how Godlike that sounded, and sure enough, that is when the spirit took over, and the lesson that happened followed.
That is all for now.
Yours Truly
Janet Fauble at home
Thursday, July 2, 2015
One of those Nights
I was falling asleep while watching Jimmy Kimmel tonight. But once i got into my bed, I find I cannot fall to sleep at all. I have been up all night long. Pain in the butt but it is one of those recurring problems.
I have so many things on my mind these days. First, moving is traumatic. It took me so long to box everything, separate the boxes to be loaded by the pros and the boxes that I would carry over myself, and so during all that time, doing it entirely by myself, I did it slowly and calmly, promising to save my sanity. One can go crazy when trying to determine what one should keep and what one should throw out. I remember leaving so many records behind when I moved out of Tampa Bay as to make myself sick. Remembering that then reminds me of when my brother not so nicely just decided to throw out all my book books when I was moving out of my house in Scottsdale to an apartment. I still do not forget that memory and was reminded of it by the exterminator man the other day.
And the truth is that I am tired of materialism, which is a sure sign that I am realizing how soon none of it will have any importance to me at all. Odd that i still felt the need to hold onto some things that i have acquired.
Meaning of course I figure that i have a few years left in this tired old body but time passes so swiftly that those few years will be here and gone before you know it. Time just does not let up.
I never really let people know me very well, and as a result, when anyone who does not know me well but just assumes that they do learns anything about me that surprises them, I am both dismayed and pleased. Fooled you, didn't I? I am thinking about a comment that a neighbor made when looking at my boxes for moving...I could not help but wonder what did they expect? Jane and I may be old but we are both still able to take care of ourselves. Jane is my 80+ year old neighbor who also had to pack and move all her stuff even though she chose to stay at the apartment where she has lived for the past 8 years. I chose to leave, and happy that I did.
The insulation is so good here that the heat is not a problem for me even during the hottest days. The glass windows are so well insulated they do not get hot. I can run the a.c. only during the day and I am comfortable at night. I cannot hear the apartments behind me or above me, and I have some nice amenities like a washer dryer that I like so that in the end, it is a good move. I am feeling better about it all the time.
I just tapped into an old discussion group I once haunted. I even read one of my posts, back when I knew nothing at all about this topic...my journey into the past of ATG.
I see that I was very forthcoming there about my experiences which are still vivid in my memory when like the cook book problem are rekindled. I can remember both as clear as a bell.
But I have changed over the course of time. Thinking about it now, I have a sense of humor about the earth spinning around the sun for centuries, and watching spiritual entities attempt to rule the world popping every so often on a regular basis to wear the flesh for a short time while doing the work that needs to be done to bring order and harmony into the world. Ha Ha Ha Ha.
In the end, it did turn out to be important for me to take those spiritual journeys back in time to understand not only the then of it, but also the now of it. Oh, Heavens, to think that life is nothing but repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat! I did learn that much for positive sure, and have a gleaning of what may be next for this poor old soul, but the stretch is always the state of the flesh. In this lifetime, I may outlive all the previous lifetimes, and I am wondering for what good purpose....
I am a very strong willed person. I have always been that way. My will will be done. That more or less ays it all to me. My will will be done. And on that note, I will close this thought process to maybe pursue and continue it later when in the mood.
I realize I am at war with many people, but I am more than just people. I know that. My will will be done.
History has given us many gods, religious beliefs, superstitions, dictators, and other rites and rituals to confound and confuse mankind as mankind progresses. Truth is always the same. Laws are immutable once begun. Natural laws, spiritual laws. Learning of the spirit is the time when man learns to recognize that while dust returns to dust, a part of him continues to live and travel through time, a part of him that never ceases to be, and that part of him is his spirit, his ghost, his true self.
Lies are usually born of ignorance, deceit, and arrogance. Thus, mankind recognizes hierarchies in social living according to one's talents, or innate leadership qualities. The ego falsifies the importance of each of these existing talents, whether it be scientific, creative, expressive, or laborious, and tries to assign a value to each. The true free spirit knows its own value and falls for none of these pretexts. But it takes a long time to reach that point in one's lifetime. So taken in by the flesh and the false value given to it, mankind falsely assumes that the farmer is lesser or greater than he is, that the physician is greater or lesser, that the teacher, the musician, the housewife, etc. etc.etc. is of high or low value. Value may end up meaning compensation, or it may mean simply recognition and honor. No matter which it is determined to be, in spirit it is truly free and knows its own true worth.
End of spiritual communication....the hand is the tool!
I have so many things on my mind these days. First, moving is traumatic. It took me so long to box everything, separate the boxes to be loaded by the pros and the boxes that I would carry over myself, and so during all that time, doing it entirely by myself, I did it slowly and calmly, promising to save my sanity. One can go crazy when trying to determine what one should keep and what one should throw out. I remember leaving so many records behind when I moved out of Tampa Bay as to make myself sick. Remembering that then reminds me of when my brother not so nicely just decided to throw out all my book books when I was moving out of my house in Scottsdale to an apartment. I still do not forget that memory and was reminded of it by the exterminator man the other day.
And the truth is that I am tired of materialism, which is a sure sign that I am realizing how soon none of it will have any importance to me at all. Odd that i still felt the need to hold onto some things that i have acquired.
Meaning of course I figure that i have a few years left in this tired old body but time passes so swiftly that those few years will be here and gone before you know it. Time just does not let up.
I never really let people know me very well, and as a result, when anyone who does not know me well but just assumes that they do learns anything about me that surprises them, I am both dismayed and pleased. Fooled you, didn't I? I am thinking about a comment that a neighbor made when looking at my boxes for moving...I could not help but wonder what did they expect? Jane and I may be old but we are both still able to take care of ourselves. Jane is my 80+ year old neighbor who also had to pack and move all her stuff even though she chose to stay at the apartment where she has lived for the past 8 years. I chose to leave, and happy that I did.
The insulation is so good here that the heat is not a problem for me even during the hottest days. The glass windows are so well insulated they do not get hot. I can run the a.c. only during the day and I am comfortable at night. I cannot hear the apartments behind me or above me, and I have some nice amenities like a washer dryer that I like so that in the end, it is a good move. I am feeling better about it all the time.
I just tapped into an old discussion group I once haunted. I even read one of my posts, back when I knew nothing at all about this topic...my journey into the past of ATG.
I see that I was very forthcoming there about my experiences which are still vivid in my memory when like the cook book problem are rekindled. I can remember both as clear as a bell.
But I have changed over the course of time. Thinking about it now, I have a sense of humor about the earth spinning around the sun for centuries, and watching spiritual entities attempt to rule the world popping every so often on a regular basis to wear the flesh for a short time while doing the work that needs to be done to bring order and harmony into the world. Ha Ha Ha Ha.
In the end, it did turn out to be important for me to take those spiritual journeys back in time to understand not only the then of it, but also the now of it. Oh, Heavens, to think that life is nothing but repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat! I did learn that much for positive sure, and have a gleaning of what may be next for this poor old soul, but the stretch is always the state of the flesh. In this lifetime, I may outlive all the previous lifetimes, and I am wondering for what good purpose....
I am a very strong willed person. I have always been that way. My will will be done. That more or less ays it all to me. My will will be done. And on that note, I will close this thought process to maybe pursue and continue it later when in the mood.
I realize I am at war with many people, but I am more than just people. I know that. My will will be done.
History has given us many gods, religious beliefs, superstitions, dictators, and other rites and rituals to confound and confuse mankind as mankind progresses. Truth is always the same. Laws are immutable once begun. Natural laws, spiritual laws. Learning of the spirit is the time when man learns to recognize that while dust returns to dust, a part of him continues to live and travel through time, a part of him that never ceases to be, and that part of him is his spirit, his ghost, his true self.
Lies are usually born of ignorance, deceit, and arrogance. Thus, mankind recognizes hierarchies in social living according to one's talents, or innate leadership qualities. The ego falsifies the importance of each of these existing talents, whether it be scientific, creative, expressive, or laborious, and tries to assign a value to each. The true free spirit knows its own value and falls for none of these pretexts. But it takes a long time to reach that point in one's lifetime. So taken in by the flesh and the false value given to it, mankind falsely assumes that the farmer is lesser or greater than he is, that the physician is greater or lesser, that the teacher, the musician, the housewife, etc. etc.etc. is of high or low value. Value may end up meaning compensation, or it may mean simply recognition and honor. No matter which it is determined to be, in spirit it is truly free and knows its own true worth.
End of spiritual communication....the hand is the tool!
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
Finally, Calm
These past three months have been the worst for me to endure but at last I have finally got my front room cleared of boxes enough to look like a place where one can live. I am not finished by a long shot because most of the boxes are either in the alcove or the bedroom to be unloaded and stored somehow but finally, I can walk around the main living area without bumping into boxes.
I have tried to be kind to myself all this time, knowing that I should not work to excess and get sick as a result. I took it easy as I could, but now I am finally relaxed at last enough to feel maybe a bit like I can really live here.
I admit I have many trepidations about this move. Every day I think I goofed but at other times, I think that i did right.
So I am still weighing the positive and negatives of this move. For the living conditions, I did myself better than just right. I really like the four walls and the location of my apartment. I am beginning to relax.
I have tried to be kind to myself all this time, knowing that I should not work to excess and get sick as a result. I took it easy as I could, but now I am finally relaxed at last enough to feel maybe a bit like I can really live here.
I admit I have many trepidations about this move. Every day I think I goofed but at other times, I think that i did right.
So I am still weighing the positive and negatives of this move. For the living conditions, I did myself better than just right. I really like the four walls and the location of my apartment. I am beginning to relax.
Monday, June 29, 2015
Who Would Believe?
I am always dismayed when good people believe that they can impose their will onto others willy nilly.
There is a lot of uproar and outrage about the Supreme Court Decision regarding gay marriage. I frankly wish this subject would die a quick death and go away now that it is done.
Religious systems seem to breed two kinds of followers: blind and dumb, and thoughtful and faithful.
The blind and dumb abound in vast numbers and are a discredit to the otherwise thoughtful and faithful.
When you are truly grounded in your faith, no decision by any lay court anywhere is going to affect or impact you except to wonder how could people do whatever it is that may be opposite what you believe.
You certainly are not going to tremble as though you are going to be threatened by it. If you are a true faithful member, nothing and nobody can shake your faith. It is that simple.
I am one of those because i have witnessed with my own inner eyes the truth of my faith, and therefore,nothing can deter me from believing in it and in myself.
I do allow for the fact that I could be some angelic or saintly soul who has the keys to the Kingdom, and can unlock any soul I wish should I decide to do so to examine and evaluate that person, or that indeed, I am able to simply slip back into my own soul's true self and relive myself as I had in the flesh some whenever years ago. One or the other is the only possible way in my opinion, and nothing can affect my belief in that. I have gone there, been that person, and done that. I like it, and I am satisfied with it.
So why all the uproar about a few men and women who want to have a permit and license to marry one another, to have a ceremony like their brothers and sisters have, and to throw big parties for showers and receptions? What is wrong with that?
Nothing, in my opinion because it does not affect me or my life one bit.
I am too old to entertain thoughts of romance and love now even though I find men attractive and interesting I am not very likely to up and get married now.
But of course, if the right guy came along and I was foolish enough, i could do it but for what good reason? Just to spend the night together? Travel together? Go to games together? Dances? Why marry to do all those things when one can do those without the necessity of a license or permit that says you are now bound by state law to take care of one another. Did not love for one another do that already?
So, I ask you. Where is that guy?
Ready for the grave himself, no doubt and probably only wants a nurse to tuck him in at night...So it goes.
There is a lot of uproar and outrage about the Supreme Court Decision regarding gay marriage. I frankly wish this subject would die a quick death and go away now that it is done.
Religious systems seem to breed two kinds of followers: blind and dumb, and thoughtful and faithful.
The blind and dumb abound in vast numbers and are a discredit to the otherwise thoughtful and faithful.
When you are truly grounded in your faith, no decision by any lay court anywhere is going to affect or impact you except to wonder how could people do whatever it is that may be opposite what you believe.
You certainly are not going to tremble as though you are going to be threatened by it. If you are a true faithful member, nothing and nobody can shake your faith. It is that simple.
I am one of those because i have witnessed with my own inner eyes the truth of my faith, and therefore,nothing can deter me from believing in it and in myself.
I do allow for the fact that I could be some angelic or saintly soul who has the keys to the Kingdom, and can unlock any soul I wish should I decide to do so to examine and evaluate that person, or that indeed, I am able to simply slip back into my own soul's true self and relive myself as I had in the flesh some whenever years ago. One or the other is the only possible way in my opinion, and nothing can affect my belief in that. I have gone there, been that person, and done that. I like it, and I am satisfied with it.
So why all the uproar about a few men and women who want to have a permit and license to marry one another, to have a ceremony like their brothers and sisters have, and to throw big parties for showers and receptions? What is wrong with that?
Nothing, in my opinion because it does not affect me or my life one bit.
I am too old to entertain thoughts of romance and love now even though I find men attractive and interesting I am not very likely to up and get married now.
But of course, if the right guy came along and I was foolish enough, i could do it but for what good reason? Just to spend the night together? Travel together? Go to games together? Dances? Why marry to do all those things when one can do those without the necessity of a license or permit that says you are now bound by state law to take care of one another. Did not love for one another do that already?
So, I ask you. Where is that guy?
Ready for the grave himself, no doubt and probably only wants a nurse to tuck him in at night...So it goes.
Friday, June 26, 2015
Summing UP the Week
After finally conquering the shock of finding a sewer roach in my bathtub, I finally was able to get back into the tub again this morning. I am still seeing that horrible critter crawling around in there, and I do not dare to forget it to make sure it doesn't happen again.
I had ordered two items from HSN this past week when on special, and today both have finally arrived. One is a skin regimen, and the other a Dyson fan. But alas and alack, the fan did not have the remote that is supposed to come with it so I had to call HSN to complain about it. They are going to send me another and when it gets here, I have the choice of either fan with the remote. I told a banker about it who suggested that I keep the one with the remote since they should work together properly. He has a point1
I love the fan. It is making the living room more enjoyable and livable since I turn the air conditioning off in the evening. But the air distributor keeps it cool. Outside the area of the fan it is not so lovely but so long as you can feel the air, it is wonderful. But without a remote, I do not have use of the oscillating part of it. I am wondering how it works on this particular fan. I am really quite skeptical about the entire fan right now.
Other events of the week which are simply news stories include the capture and killing of a prisoner escapee in New York state. Odd at the way this prison break is playing. One can only wonder how much of it we should believe, since it is a story that has had so many twists and turns that it is hard to buy into it at times. Can a prison be that lax that this escape plan could be carried out so well?
Europe has been under attack in three locations: France, Tunisia, and Kuwait! All seem to be orchestrated ISIS attacks. Serious trouble there.
Funerals are being held for the men and women killed in Charleston, South Carolina. Some nut case by the name of Dylan Roof took upon himself to travel 120 miles to carry out an act of vengeance on innocent church going people. What kind of idiot this young crazed kid is has been cussed and discussed over the media. He hated the American flag, hated black people, so he picked a black church with a high reputation to carry out his madness. Fortunately, the church people have been so good as to forgive and to act honorably in this very serious matter. To think that this young man entered this church with a weapon, sat with these people during Bible study, and then stood up to shoot and kill them is unbelievable. It makes no sense to me, but any more in this crazy world, people get worse and worse all the time.
The t.v. is showing Barack Obama as he ends his eulogy for the pastor by singing Amazing Grace. He startled the congregation who finally rose to sing it with him. It is interesting to watch him as he tries to lead them in song, and he does have a good voice. Surrounded by all those members of the church around him, he looks pretty small and thin in comparison to the powerful men who stood behind him.
Gays celebrated the Supreme Court's decision to allow gay marriages as legal under the constitution. It seems odd that this was ever a question but gays have had Barack Obama as their champion so that the public has been changing in attitudes about gay rights so that the liberal members of the court voted 5 to 4 to acknowledge their right to legal rights in partnerships.
They are celebrating loud and clear. Hopefully, this will not be an issue in the election because the Republicans have been trying to write amendments to protect the marriage of heterosexuals for a long time. Scott Walker tonight sounded like the idiot he obviously is about this subject by suggesting that we make an amendment to the constitution regarding marriage. How dumb can any one be to even suggest such a thing?
But Rubio and Bush were rather mild in their disagreement, Rubio saying the right thing the right way. Surprise! Surprise! The only Republican who made sense. I wonder how they think they can win elections making the stupid statements they are so noted for doing. But Rubio at least said that it is the law of the land we must respect it even if we disagree with it. I do not know why they can disagree to legal protections. This is a civil matter, not a church matter.
I do not deny that Jesus says quite plainly that marriage is between man and woman. But I hate to say this but some would change that if they could. But it is clear. He also says that angels do not marry, that in Heaven there is no such thing as marriage. the resurrected are as angels, and do not marry.
But then, all was passed from word to mouth for years before it became written, and I honestly wonder at anyone who can ever believe anything that is passed generation from generation by word of mouth. Even the old handwritten probably had changes in the words...so it goes...I am happy to believe that in Heaven there is no marriage. Since marriage is for the flesh to procreate and to have wee babies...no need for reproduction of spirit in Heaven.
On that note, good night!
I had ordered two items from HSN this past week when on special, and today both have finally arrived. One is a skin regimen, and the other a Dyson fan. But alas and alack, the fan did not have the remote that is supposed to come with it so I had to call HSN to complain about it. They are going to send me another and when it gets here, I have the choice of either fan with the remote. I told a banker about it who suggested that I keep the one with the remote since they should work together properly. He has a point1
I love the fan. It is making the living room more enjoyable and livable since I turn the air conditioning off in the evening. But the air distributor keeps it cool. Outside the area of the fan it is not so lovely but so long as you can feel the air, it is wonderful. But without a remote, I do not have use of the oscillating part of it. I am wondering how it works on this particular fan. I am really quite skeptical about the entire fan right now.
Other events of the week which are simply news stories include the capture and killing of a prisoner escapee in New York state. Odd at the way this prison break is playing. One can only wonder how much of it we should believe, since it is a story that has had so many twists and turns that it is hard to buy into it at times. Can a prison be that lax that this escape plan could be carried out so well?
Europe has been under attack in three locations: France, Tunisia, and Kuwait! All seem to be orchestrated ISIS attacks. Serious trouble there.
Funerals are being held for the men and women killed in Charleston, South Carolina. Some nut case by the name of Dylan Roof took upon himself to travel 120 miles to carry out an act of vengeance on innocent church going people. What kind of idiot this young crazed kid is has been cussed and discussed over the media. He hated the American flag, hated black people, so he picked a black church with a high reputation to carry out his madness. Fortunately, the church people have been so good as to forgive and to act honorably in this very serious matter. To think that this young man entered this church with a weapon, sat with these people during Bible study, and then stood up to shoot and kill them is unbelievable. It makes no sense to me, but any more in this crazy world, people get worse and worse all the time.
The t.v. is showing Barack Obama as he ends his eulogy for the pastor by singing Amazing Grace. He startled the congregation who finally rose to sing it with him. It is interesting to watch him as he tries to lead them in song, and he does have a good voice. Surrounded by all those members of the church around him, he looks pretty small and thin in comparison to the powerful men who stood behind him.
Gays celebrated the Supreme Court's decision to allow gay marriages as legal under the constitution. It seems odd that this was ever a question but gays have had Barack Obama as their champion so that the public has been changing in attitudes about gay rights so that the liberal members of the court voted 5 to 4 to acknowledge their right to legal rights in partnerships.
They are celebrating loud and clear. Hopefully, this will not be an issue in the election because the Republicans have been trying to write amendments to protect the marriage of heterosexuals for a long time. Scott Walker tonight sounded like the idiot he obviously is about this subject by suggesting that we make an amendment to the constitution regarding marriage. How dumb can any one be to even suggest such a thing?
But Rubio and Bush were rather mild in their disagreement, Rubio saying the right thing the right way. Surprise! Surprise! The only Republican who made sense. I wonder how they think they can win elections making the stupid statements they are so noted for doing. But Rubio at least said that it is the law of the land we must respect it even if we disagree with it. I do not know why they can disagree to legal protections. This is a civil matter, not a church matter.
I do not deny that Jesus says quite plainly that marriage is between man and woman. But I hate to say this but some would change that if they could. But it is clear. He also says that angels do not marry, that in Heaven there is no such thing as marriage. the resurrected are as angels, and do not marry.
But then, all was passed from word to mouth for years before it became written, and I honestly wonder at anyone who can ever believe anything that is passed generation from generation by word of mouth. Even the old handwritten probably had changes in the words...so it goes...I am happy to believe that in Heaven there is no marriage. Since marriage is for the flesh to procreate and to have wee babies...no need for reproduction of spirit in Heaven.
On that note, good night!
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
Try Again
Getting adjusted to a new apartment and region is taking some time. Now that i am finally in my apartment I do not go out as much as when I had been waiting to get into the place. I have so much work to do that I do something every day towards getting things in place, but I tire easily and so I will not push myself too hard now.
I have lots of ceramics, most of which had been my mothers, as I had only a few, but all of her stuff became mine once she passed away. I have finally put most of it into the cupboards where at least they are safe from becoming broken or damaged. I had had one incident where one glass was broken and I have even kept it because it is such beautiful crystal. I was sickened by it but it happened when I carried it from the Monaco to East McDonald. I won't let go of it though.
I promised myself not to buy anything for this apartment until after I am here a year. I do not know if I will stay for another year or not and so I do not want to invest into any furniture at all. I could go to GoodWill maybe to find something on sale. Sandra had bought the table for me at $1.00 on sale she said. I would be shocked to get anything that cheap now. But that is the only way I would do it.
I did give the table to St. Vincent de Paul along with the love seat and the glider chair and bicycle.
I do need lamps and so I will buy lamps at either Walmart or a thrift shop.
But for the time being I am using the lights that are installed in the apartment. My place looks dark from outside because I do not use the highest lamps.
I admit right now i am nostalgic and am missing my mom and my dad. I now understand how they may have felt at this age now that i am going through it. If it were not for a bad wisdom tooth, I might feel better than I do at present. But this tooth is giving me sensations that I do not like. I blame all my negative feelings on it. I think it is the cause of most of my aches and pains that I am having.
I confess to ordering a Dyson 12 inch fan for the apartment. It was on sale at HSN and I have always liked the fans that I found in Dillard's and Macy's. But they are way too expensive for me to buy until a special came on HSN which I could not resist. It should be in this week I am hoping. I can hardly wait to get it. It is 75% quieter than the previous ten inch they sell for over $325. This 12 inch was only $199 which I found irresistible. I bought it! I would be a fool not to buy it.
I can't wait for it. I love the air conditioning system in this apartment, and frankly, it does not get too hot in here at night. Since I am on the Southeast side, I have a good location to avoid the heat in the late afternoon. I had been on the West side on McDonald and the bedroom was always hot. They had removed the sun screens that did block the heat and did not replace them so that the people who live there now can only suffer from the heat. It was so hot in my bedroom that it burned the rod that held the window fast to a deep dark brown. I was shocked to see how bad it was.
I am watching Ninja warrior but i think that million dollar listing show is coming up on Bravo at 9:00 with a new show. I will go back and forth to see both.
I had wanted to go to California to see American Pharaoh but I just cannot afford to do it now. I will go to the sports grill on Saturday to hopefully make a decent bet on a chance to get some real money. I am hoping anyway. It is the Hollywood Gold Cup so I may have a shot at doing well finally.
American Pharaoh is to parade around the track. I want to see him but I have too much work to do to up and leave, plus, I would have to go Thursday night to get there on Friday at a decent time...Too costly right now.
I have lots of ceramics, most of which had been my mothers, as I had only a few, but all of her stuff became mine once she passed away. I have finally put most of it into the cupboards where at least they are safe from becoming broken or damaged. I had had one incident where one glass was broken and I have even kept it because it is such beautiful crystal. I was sickened by it but it happened when I carried it from the Monaco to East McDonald. I won't let go of it though.
I promised myself not to buy anything for this apartment until after I am here a year. I do not know if I will stay for another year or not and so I do not want to invest into any furniture at all. I could go to GoodWill maybe to find something on sale. Sandra had bought the table for me at $1.00 on sale she said. I would be shocked to get anything that cheap now. But that is the only way I would do it.
I did give the table to St. Vincent de Paul along with the love seat and the glider chair and bicycle.
I do need lamps and so I will buy lamps at either Walmart or a thrift shop.
But for the time being I am using the lights that are installed in the apartment. My place looks dark from outside because I do not use the highest lamps.
I admit right now i am nostalgic and am missing my mom and my dad. I now understand how they may have felt at this age now that i am going through it. If it were not for a bad wisdom tooth, I might feel better than I do at present. But this tooth is giving me sensations that I do not like. I blame all my negative feelings on it. I think it is the cause of most of my aches and pains that I am having.
I confess to ordering a Dyson 12 inch fan for the apartment. It was on sale at HSN and I have always liked the fans that I found in Dillard's and Macy's. But they are way too expensive for me to buy until a special came on HSN which I could not resist. It should be in this week I am hoping. I can hardly wait to get it. It is 75% quieter than the previous ten inch they sell for over $325. This 12 inch was only $199 which I found irresistible. I bought it! I would be a fool not to buy it.
I can't wait for it. I love the air conditioning system in this apartment, and frankly, it does not get too hot in here at night. Since I am on the Southeast side, I have a good location to avoid the heat in the late afternoon. I had been on the West side on McDonald and the bedroom was always hot. They had removed the sun screens that did block the heat and did not replace them so that the people who live there now can only suffer from the heat. It was so hot in my bedroom that it burned the rod that held the window fast to a deep dark brown. I was shocked to see how bad it was.
I am watching Ninja warrior but i think that million dollar listing show is coming up on Bravo at 9:00 with a new show. I will go back and forth to see both.
I had wanted to go to California to see American Pharaoh but I just cannot afford to do it now. I will go to the sports grill on Saturday to hopefully make a decent bet on a chance to get some real money. I am hoping anyway. It is the Hollywood Gold Cup so I may have a shot at doing well finally.
American Pharaoh is to parade around the track. I want to see him but I have too much work to do to up and leave, plus, I would have to go Thursday night to get there on Friday at a decent time...Too costly right now.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Nervous Wreck
I am a nervous wreck and I am using this means to just air my thoughts.
One, I will literally get rid of all items that I possess that I do not need. I am unloading all items now and have not yet found a place for most. I do not intend to go to any expense in this new apartment. I will not buy any items to use in here but will use what I already have. I may rent a storage room for some things just to have them secured and under lock and key. Time will tell on that.
I do intend not to extend my lease here and will depart this apartment next July for certain. I hope to find a permanent home (?) by that time. Permanent is a word that may not be true. Nothing is ever permanent.
But perhaps I will find a place to call home where i can plan to live until I am put to my rest. I do not intend for that to happen anytime this year.
But when you reach my age, you wonder how many years left. That has been consuming my thoughts for some time now. I wish I could set a date so that I could manage my affairs better.
This event has really affected me in a very adverse way. For one thing, I have realized that in many ways I more alone than ever, and it does not please me. For that reason alone, I still want to spend my last years doing more than sitting around an apartment watching t.v. and going from shopping mall to shopping mall.
But I do admit that television does help make the days pass in a way that participation in outdoor activities in Arizona cannot possibly do.
I am not interested in socializing now. I want to get my belongings arranged and sorted properly, to get myself in control as far as health and diet are concerned, and to be able to travel about freely without worry or concern about damage to my home or car.
At present, this is simply a way of talking myself into sanity once again. I was out of my mind about a sewer roach for awhile. I was ticked off at Dish representatives until I finally received a decent letter telling me that boxes are on their way, a tracking system will appear, and that this account is closed for certain. What a problem that company had been for me.
I wish that people would better communicate with one another about the problems they have with various companies so we could all be of use to one another.
One, I will literally get rid of all items that I possess that I do not need. I am unloading all items now and have not yet found a place for most. I do not intend to go to any expense in this new apartment. I will not buy any items to use in here but will use what I already have. I may rent a storage room for some things just to have them secured and under lock and key. Time will tell on that.
I do intend not to extend my lease here and will depart this apartment next July for certain. I hope to find a permanent home (?) by that time. Permanent is a word that may not be true. Nothing is ever permanent.
But perhaps I will find a place to call home where i can plan to live until I am put to my rest. I do not intend for that to happen anytime this year.
But when you reach my age, you wonder how many years left. That has been consuming my thoughts for some time now. I wish I could set a date so that I could manage my affairs better.
This event has really affected me in a very adverse way. For one thing, I have realized that in many ways I more alone than ever, and it does not please me. For that reason alone, I still want to spend my last years doing more than sitting around an apartment watching t.v. and going from shopping mall to shopping mall.
But I do admit that television does help make the days pass in a way that participation in outdoor activities in Arizona cannot possibly do.
I am not interested in socializing now. I want to get my belongings arranged and sorted properly, to get myself in control as far as health and diet are concerned, and to be able to travel about freely without worry or concern about damage to my home or car.
At present, this is simply a way of talking myself into sanity once again. I was out of my mind about a sewer roach for awhile. I was ticked off at Dish representatives until I finally received a decent letter telling me that boxes are on their way, a tracking system will appear, and that this account is closed for certain. What a problem that company had been for me.
I wish that people would better communicate with one another about the problems they have with various companies so we could all be of use to one another.
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