Thoughts about Reincarnation

Reincarnation is a belief system that espouses the view that a soul or spirit can be reborn again in the flesh to live in multiple lives as a variety of personalities.  This belief system is common in some religious faiths while rejected totally by others who are hoping that a belief in the Savior will immediately take them to some Heavenly Realm where they can dwell forever free from the pangs of the flesh once so endured.

When I was very young, a friend asked me if I believed in it, and at that time, I had no idea, not knowing what it meant or why I would or would not believe it.  It took me years of study as I eventually read all the books and articles that are available on the topic.  Two people influenced me strongly: Taylor Caldwell and Jess Stearn.  Others who impacted me were writings of Ian Stevnson and Edgar Cayce.  I take everything that is said about the subject with a grain of salt to be honest. I understand well why one can or cannot believe in an idea embraced totally by another person.  Each one of us wants to be told  from within that we can learn of our own life and while others may lead us there through their experiences, the only thing that will convince many of us is our own personal revelation about ourselves.

That is natural  and normal when you think  about it.  None of us should accept anything without examination.

I am writing this now to discuss the idea realizing that my experiences have made  me understand the problem in meeting up with people we have loved and known in the past.  Because I am alone now and have had many experiences with a variety of men in the past, mostly when I was young and marriageable, I am saying that I eventually learned who I had been in a past life and even a few of the people of this lifetime who had been with me in that time period.  The reason I am writing this is because I learned that many times those we loved so dearly then are still with us today, and who  have come into  my  life in some way, and may have gone on to live a life free from mine as well.  I am aware of three men for certain that I have met up with in this  lifetime, and possibly four, who had been very close to me in different lifetimes in the past.  I know for a fact  who each and every one is  and who I believe that they had been in a previous lifetime.  Oddly enough, we had had a relationship in this life that may have been full and complete, but as time passed, we went on to other people and places from when we had reunited, not knowing that we had had a past together in  a previous lifetime.

In the case of three of them, the state of love that one feels when one falls in love did happen to me once again, but love is a funny thing, it is a freedom that gives you the joy of loving but also the freedom of parting with no hard feelings or sorrow.  Love is there, but it is an enduring love that surrounds you to also free you to go on in other directions.

So in that respect, I realize that we all come together again and again, but each time, it is in a different way that may last a long time or a short time, but it does bring about a feeling of good will towards one another.

That is all I will say for now. I had so many former marriages and loves that in a few cases, I know that we have met again and shared time together in this lifetime as we had in the previous.  It is good for me to realize this now since I know that love is the answer for each and everyone.  Submitting to the freedom that love gives us brings about a peace of mind that only when realized can one truly value the importance of it.

So to all my loves of yesterday and today, we have been blessed!

Psssport

I have lived in America for 76 years and only once have I needed a passport to leave the country. I just remembered to check the date of my passport which is good for ten years to see when it was that I finally got one.  I want to go back to Europe to see more of the continent than I had already seen so I   need to know the when and how of when I can do that.

I just checked to see how much time I have left on my passport, having used it only once, so I am ready to take another trip to France and other European countries asap. I will do it asap because i am not getting any younger, and really want to visit key places that interest me.

I had nearly decided to store all my belongings and just go to Europe for a long stay to visit and explore but in the end, I did decide to hang around the place I have been living in for these past 21 years, Arizona.

I am finally beginning to feel like I am settling in despite the fact that early on, I was driving around the city and visiting eateries.  I no longer do that now that I have settled but I found a few good restaurants that I would return to enjoy their fare.  There are several for which I am happy to say makes living here a good decision.

But I am having to now sort again to send many things out to charity groups. I do not need to keep all my old billfolds, purses, hats, and even bras for as long as I have.  They just take up space, and I no longer seem to use them as I might have years ago.

Note to myself: Do IT!

Monsoon season upon us.

It rained last night. A loud clap of thunder and lightning strike which sounded as though it were outside my window woke me up at 4:50 in the morning.  It was raining.  We need the rain, but fortunately, the wind was light.  I can tell how light because some dirt that I have piled into a place on the patio has not moved.  That is good but the plants did show the strength of the breeze.

I went back to sleep, finally going back to my normal schedule which meant I woke up around 7:30 instead of 6:00 which had been driving me crazy.

I am slowly getting back to normal in my lifestyle.  I have been interrupted for a year in the problem of living with constant construction all around me, disrupting my life in  a way that had truly been unnecessary had I only moved out one year earlier. I may not have found this place then but at least I would not have had to endure such a drastic and dreadful hell.  I hated the entire time period in which these disrespectful construction workers interfered with my life.

It only makes me fonder of Donald Trump than I had already been to be honest.  And I have never been fond of him period.

I am so tired of namely pamby politicians who court the illegal immigrants as if they have any real value to our system at all.  It is an outrage that only  The Donald seems to be addressing, and those of us who are tired of it can only applaud him.

So I will start again...but I will publish this as I am not afraid that anyone but a few will understand it and read it anyway.

How did the water get in the tub?

Last night while writing my post for this blog, after the thought My will will be done, I had the flow of writing that some would call automatic so that I believe that Holy Spirit wrote the final paragraphs about life eternal regarding the soul, and the problem of enduring the flesh.  

So this morning because I did not get to sleep before 5:00 this morning I slept til 10:00 when I woke up to the sound of a blower outside my apartment.  I went into the bathroom to find water at a depth that was unusually high in the tub.  I do not think it is a leak as I have had the stopper in the tub ever since the Palmetto bug was found. I learned that it was a Palmetto bug from the exterminator who said that it did not come up the drain but lives in the trees outside.

So he has eased my fear but noticing that i had let the stopper open i closed it before going to bed, remembering that I did not want anything crawling up through the pipes.  So it was closed and high water, nearly one quarter full was in the tub this morning. No leaks, so how did the water get there.  I have kept my doors locked so nobody could get in, and I know for a fact that I did not touch the water faucet at all. My conclusion right away is that it is evidence that God is here.

So since ABC locals just announced that today is UFO day I naturally said aloud, "Oh, that explains it!" I blame UFO's for everything.  ABC had a poll of how many believe in UFO's, and naturally, being an eye witness to one in Michigan in 1975 I surely do. I have seen others at a distance since but this one was so unclose that nobody could ever miss it.

There is no doubt in my mind about UFO's, meaning Unidentified, and Flying, and Objects.

Odd that I chose to go to Pothos. org last night to read whatever was posted there, and found an article by Jeanne Reams, a phd in history who has written her doctorate on Hephaestion, Alexander's so called best friend.  I remembered my visions of Hephaestion who I always liken a bit to Ben Affleck in looks department as seen in my memory tank. I have many memories of Hephaestion for the record, and he is a most handsome visage to recall. I can tell tales of him myself, and have on occasion, but for now, I am just saying...

So I went into a discussion of former lifetimes, laughing at mother earth spinning around the sun for centuries with souls going in and out at periods of time living in the flesh for the dramatization and gradual total habitation of the planet.  I see things that others do not, and often have to laugh about it. I only ever find a few advanced souls wise enough to comprehend my thinking but so it goes, I am writing this so those who understand it can read it and ponder it.

I realize that those doubters who do not believe cannot be totally convinced, just taking someone's word for it, but life is based upon our taking each other's word, and having faith in one another.  I write this only because I need to express it, and I frankly am not trying to persuade or convince anyone else of the facts of this, because I know that only a few like a woman in Missouri once who led me to the right scripture for the lights that showed up in my apartment to understand.  A few souls do help one another out.

Just as a woman in the ATG group did often help me when I shared my travels in time to know that my visions were not in vain but had substance.  It is amazing at how much I learned about Alexander and his friends and companions during my trips back in time. So no coincidence that I did go to Pothos last night to realize how long it has been since I touched base there.

I suspect that it is the lesson I learned when writing my last paragraphs last night about hierarchy.  Alexander was born into a family who valued their role as leaders or rulers in the life of the country in which they dwelled.  While Alexander was the leader after his father expired, he was regarded as a superman by his cohorts, but spirit is reminding me that the  tender of the horses whose hooves had to be kept healthy for the long rides, that the dispenser of grains, that the seamstress who sewed, that the man who made the shields, armor, and weapons, that the accountants who kept the records, that all these person are just as important to the cause as is the leader Alexander who is the brains and the guts of the group, but also is in spirit equal to all the others.    I realized some of Alexander's many negative qualities as well as his positive qualities while writing this spiritually inspired paragraph at the time that I wrote it. I was seized as the saying goes by the spiritual thoughts which affect mental thoughts but which come out of my fingertips as fast as I can type them. In other words, I am not actually thinking about these things, but like a spider spins a web, just opening the way for them to come into print onto this page.

Alexander is the man who the gods, or the spirits, or the inteligences, or the creators, used to do their bidding at the time.  Alexander recognized this after having it pummeled it into his consciousness by his mother and father as well, but in truth, he possessed all the capabilites that enabled him to do the dangerous and awesome acts that he did. He was truly reckless at times, but just as I am today in the belief that God controls my life and my behavior and actions, so did Alexander then.

Now I have relived Alexander's life, and I have undergone many moments in his life, learning of the people who surrounded him, his wives, his child, and his family and friends.  One would wonder as I did at the time that all this happened at how it is that I could uncover an event which occurred so many centuries ago, but in spirit it is not that long at all...it is just another yesterday in the annals of time, and it is important to know and to realize why one must come to grips with this sooner or later.

It is like today I am weighing in all of that is going on around me. Water in the bathtub with no explanation of why or how...I must figure that one out but my first conclusion is that God is here.

I believe that God is both within and without. That God is all around and lives both within ourselves, and around us in all those others who allow and permit and invite God to live within them.  Together, we all comprise what the Catholic Church calls the spiritual body of Christ.  That is true to some extent but it is more than just a Catholic or Universal belief, it is a reality.  Together, those of us who let God  grow, bloom, and prosper within us, we are given the power to do God's will. When I said my will will be done, I realized how Godlike that sounded, and sure enough, that is when the spirit took over, and the lesson that happened followed.

That is all for now.

One of those Nights

I was falling asleep while watching Jimmy Kimmel tonight.  But once i got into my bed, I find I cannot fall to sleep at all. I have been up all night long.  Pain in the butt but it is one of those recurring problems.

I have so many things on my mind these days.  First, moving is traumatic.  It took me so long to box everything, separate the boxes to be loaded by the pros and the boxes that I would carry over myself, and so during all that time, doing it entirely by myself, I did it slowly and calmly, promising to save my sanity.  One can go crazy when trying to determine what one should keep and what one should throw out. I remember leaving so many records behind when I moved out of Tampa Bay as to make myself sick.  Remembering that then reminds me of when my brother not so nicely just decided to throw out all my book books when I was moving out of my house in Scottsdale to an apartment. I still do not forget that memory and was reminded of it by the exterminator man the other day.  

And the truth is that I am tired of materialism, which is a sure sign that I am realizing how soon none of it will have any importance to me at all. Odd that i still felt the need to hold onto some things that i have acquired.

Meaning of course I figure that i have a few years left in this tired old body but time passes so swiftly that those few years will be here and gone before you know it.  Time just does not let up.

I never really let people know me very well, and as a result, when anyone who does not know me well but just assumes that they do learns anything about me that surprises them, I am both dismayed and pleased.  Fooled you, didn't I?  I am thinking about a comment that a neighbor made when looking at my boxes for moving...I could not help but wonder what did they expect?  Jane and I may be old but we are both still able to take care of ourselves. Jane is my 80+ year old neighbor who also had to pack and move all her stuff even though she chose to stay at the apartment where she has lived for the past 8 years. I chose to leave, and happy that I did.

The insulation is so good here that the heat is not a problem for me even during the hottest days. The glass windows are so well insulated they do not get hot.  I can run the a.c. only during the day and I am comfortable at night. I cannot hear the apartments behind me or above me, and I have some nice amenities like a washer dryer that I like so that in the end, it is a good move. I am feeling better about it all the time.

I just tapped into an old discussion group I once haunted.  I even read one of my posts, back when I knew nothing at all about this topic...my journey into the past of ATG.

I see that I was very forthcoming there about my experiences which are still vivid in my memory when like the cook book problem are rekindled.  I can remember both as clear as a bell.

But I have changed over the course of time.  Thinking about it now, I have a sense of humor about the earth spinning around the sun for centuries, and watching spiritual entities attempt to rule the world popping every so often on a regular basis to wear the flesh for a short time while doing the work that needs to be done to bring order and harmony into the world.  Ha Ha Ha Ha.

In the end, it did turn out to be important for me to take those spiritual journeys back in time to understand not only the then of it, but also the now of it.  Oh, Heavens, to think that life is nothing but repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat!  I did learn that much for positive sure, and have a gleaning of what may be next for this poor old soul, but the stretch is always the state of the flesh.  In this lifetime, I may outlive all the previous lifetimes, and I am wondering for what good purpose....

I am a very strong willed person.  I have always been that way.  My will will be done.  That more or less ays it all to me.  My will will be done.  And on that note, I will close this thought process to maybe pursue and continue it later when in the mood.

I realize I am at war with many people, but I am more than just people.  I know that.  My will will be done.

History has given us many gods, religious beliefs, superstitions, dictators, and other rites and rituals to confound and confuse mankind as mankind progresses.  Truth is always the same.  Laws are immutable once begun.  Natural laws, spiritual laws.  Learning of the spirit is the time when man learns to recognize that while dust returns to dust, a part of him continues to live and travel through time, a part of him that never ceases to be, and that part of him is his spirit, his ghost, his true self.

Lies are usually born of ignorance, deceit, and arrogance.  Thus, mankind recognizes hierarchies in social living according to one's talents, or innate leadership qualities.  The ego falsifies the importance of each of these existing talents, whether it be scientific, creative, expressive, or laborious, and tries to assign a value to each.  The true free spirit knows its own value and falls for none of these pretexts.  But it takes a long time to reach that point in one's lifetime.  So taken in by the flesh and the false value given to it, mankind falsely assumes that the farmer is lesser or greater than he is, that the physician is greater or lesser, that the teacher, the musician, the housewife, etc. etc.etc. is of high or low value.  Value may end up meaning compensation, or it may mean simply recognition and honor.  No matter which it is determined to be, in spirit it is truly free and knows its own true worth.

End of spiritual communication....the hand is the tool!

Finally, Calm

These past three months have  been the worst for me to endure but at last I have finally got my front room cleared of boxes enough to look like a place where one can live.  I am not finished by a long shot because most of the boxes are either in the alcove or the bedroom to be unloaded and stored somehow but finally, I can walk around the main living area without bumping into boxes.

I have tried to be kind to myself all this time, knowing that I should not work to excess and get sick as a result.  I took it easy as I could, but now I am finally relaxed at last enough to feel maybe a bit like I can really live here.

I admit I have many trepidations about this move.  Every day I think I goofed but at other times, I think that i did right.

So I am still weighing the positive and negatives of this move.  For the living conditions, I did myself better than just right.  I really like the four walls and the location of my apartment.  I am beginning to relax.

Who Would Believe?

I am always dismayed when good people believe that they can impose their will onto others willy nilly.

There is a lot of uproar and outrage about the Supreme Court Decision regarding gay marriage.  I frankly wish this subject would die a quick death and go away now that it is done.

Religious systems seem to breed two kinds of followers: blind and dumb, and thoughtful and faithful.

The blind and dumb abound in vast numbers and are a discredit to the otherwise thoughtful and faithful.

When you are truly grounded in your faith, no decision by any lay court anywhere is going to affect or impact you except to wonder how could people do whatever it is that may be opposite what you believe.

You certainly are not going to tremble as though you are going to be threatened by it.  If you are a true faithful member, nothing and nobody can shake your faith. It is that simple.

I am one of those because i have witnessed with my own inner eyes the truth of my faith, and therefore,nothing can deter me from believing in it and in myself.

I do allow for the fact that I could be some angelic or saintly soul who has the keys to the Kingdom, and can unlock any soul I wish should I decide to do so to examine and evaluate that person, or that indeed, I am able to simply slip back into my own soul's true self and relive myself as I had in the flesh some whenever years ago.  One or the other is the only possible way in my opinion, and nothing can affect my belief in that. I have gone there, been that person, and done that.  I like it, and I am satisfied with it.

So why all the uproar about a few men and women who want to have a permit and license to marry one another, to have a ceremony like their brothers and sisters have, and to throw big parties for showers and receptions?  What is wrong with that?

Nothing, in my opinion because it does not affect me or my life one bit.

I am too old to entertain thoughts of romance and love now even though I find men attractive and interesting I am not very likely to up and get married now.

But of course, if the right guy came along and I was foolish enough, i could do it but for what good reason?  Just to spend the night together?  Travel together? Go to games together?  Dances?  Why marry to do all those things when one can do those without the necessity of a license or permit that says you are now bound by state law to take care of one another. Did not love for one another do that already?

So, I ask you.  Where is that guy?

Ready for the grave himself, no doubt and probably only wants a nurse to tuck him in at night...So it goes.